Is it possible to know someone for years and not know anything about that person?
I was born and brought up in a Christian home. My parents were Christians and not the Sunday Sunday kind of Christians but, the real believing kind of Christians. My dad who is now resting in the blossom of the Lord was a Pastor. He didn’t grow up in a Christian family though. He was a Muslim but had an encounter with Christ and he became a Christian. Thank God for that.
Growing up in a Christian family everyone would expect that your spiritual life would be on fire. That you would be this good kind of Christian human who has a deep intimate relationship with Christ. When they’re asking people to pray in a gathering they’ll pick you because your father is a Pastor and they expect that you should automatically know how to pray and when you do something bad they’ll be like, “And you are a child of a pastor”. Free me, abeg (please).
Even though I was born in a Christian home, the only difference between me and an unbeliever was that, I believed in Christ and his resurrection. Other than that, nothing. I wasn’t the wild kind of girl who attended parties and all that but, I wasn’t the serious Christian either. I didn’t read my Bible except in church or during devotion, I couldn’t pray for a long time (I would get bored if the prayer was taking too long), I couldn’t even fast. Going to Church was fun and all that but it was just that, fun. I didn’t know that Christianity was way more than going to church or being born in a Christian home.
For years I was just the ordinary kind of Christian. I was neither hot nor cold. I went to Church Wednesdays, Fridays (sometimes Saturdays) and Sundays but, I didn’t know that you could actually have a personal relationship with God aside from going to church. I didn’t even know that it wasn’t really about the going to church. I didn’t know all that until I read a Christian blog. I saw the way the blogger had a strong desire for God and I was touched. I told myself that if a young girl like me can have this much desire for God then so can I. That day I made up my mind to start taking God more seriously. Talk is cheap, isn’t it?
I started reading my Bible a little more, I started praying a little more, I even fasted and didn’t break by 12 or 1. The thing is, the way God and his angels are not sleeping is the same way the devil and his troop are not sleeping. The Bible says the devil is roaming about like a lion seeking for whom to devour. When the devil saw that I wanted to start taking my spiritual life seriously, he looked for a way to get to me and he got to me. My spiritual life that was about to take a new turn now started going back and forth. If I take a step forward, I’ll be drawn back five times backward and then I’ll have to start all over again.
Before we entered 2018, I had made up my mind that I was going to change. That I would be more intentional with my walk with God. And really when the new year came, my spiritual life was on fire if I do say so myself. I deleted all the secular songs on my phone, I would wake up to read my Bible, worship God and pray. I was proud of myself. That I could even delete ALL the secular songs on my phone was enough to make me proud of myself because I’m a music junkie. In my mind I was making progress. Fast forward to a few months later and I went back to the way I was last year, even worse.
I went back to listening to secular music and even listened to the ones that had like huge sexual lyrics. I started downloading erotic books and apart from the recommended literature books in school, I would look for books that had a lot of sexual content in it. I kept telling myself that since I wasn’t doing anything the songs were talking about, or the books I was reading were talking about, I’m still right with God. Besides, my friends were Christians and they were doing the same thing so I’ve got nothing to worry about.
When Christ started making me realize that he wasn’t pleased with the way I was living my life, I told myself that once I graduated from school I would start over again in my walk with God. My friends already know me as someone who isn’t a serious Christian, let me just keep up with it till I graduate. After my graduation, a lot happened that I even forgot that I wanted to start my walk with Christ all over again. So, I was still at the same point.
I guess one of the reasons the Holy Spirit wanted me to switch to Christian blogging was to draw me close to him. Since the day I accepted the call things have been a little different. Now I’ve decided not to read erotic books or listen to songs that have sexual lyrics or don’t make sense. I’m taking it one day at a time and not rush the process.
The whole essence of this story is to make you understand that just because you were born in a Christian home doesn’t make you automatically born again. It’s something you have to do on your own. It’s not something your parents will do for you. Christianity is a personal thing. You shouldn’t say, my friends are doing this and they are Christians that’s means it’s not bad. Just because your friends are doing something doesn’t make it OK. You should study the Bible and know if it’s OK or not. If it’s not then, don’t do it no matter the pressure. I thought knowing the latest secular song or knowing about artists in the entertainment industry was what would make me look cool. I used to be celebrity crazy and would spend my time and data trying to know more about a celebrity. Lately, Christ is changing my mentality about that. I try not to focus on the artist’s life anymore.
One thing Christ doesn’t like is lukewarm Christians. Christians that are neither warm nor cold. Christians that are neither here nor there. Revelations 3:15-16 (NIV) says:
I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you were either one or the other! So, because you are lukewarm—neither hot nor cold—I am about to spit you out of my mouth.
I used to be that kind of Christian but as I’ve decided to be a student under Christ, he’s teaching me to come out of my shell and take a stand for him. Christianity is not something to be taken lightly. There’s nothing worth losing heaven over. Not friends, not family or the pleasures of this world. Make that decision today to live boldly for Christ.
Song suggestion: Glory by Evan and Eris